September 23, 2015

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Mike hit another 7 spot today.  It’s nice to have a little extra money…and if I would have hit it, I wouldn’t think twice about being excited.  But part of me is reserved…I don’t want him to start gambling all the time like he did when we were first married or when we first met each other.  He has addiction issues.  I know that.  I married him because I chose to believe he was more than those things.  It just worries me.  Maybe I can be happy as long as I am in control of the money.  I can buy hockey tickets now and that is exciting.

Thank you for my job, Lord.  It makes me excited to wake up in the morning.  Even if the day is stressful (like today).  I think I need to yell a little more and have less fun.  It’s hard to find a balance.  Thank you for key club.  Thank you for good students to look forward to every period.

Thank you for my husband and thank you for the blessing of a random 7 spot.  We can get little things done around the house and that is nice.  Maybe I should put some in a hiding spot??

It beginning to look like fall around this town.  I love fall…Halloween and sweaters.  I love my birthday.  I love daylight savings!  I love hockey.  I have a very good life and realize how blessed I am.  Don’t get me wrong.  I am trying not to stress over babies.  I ask you again, Lord, please bless Mike and I with a child.  A healthy beautiful baby who can bring us closer as a family.  Help my mom to be content.  Help my brother find shelter and happiness.  Thank you for my family.  Thank you for my friends.

As the seasons change, i am once again thankful.  I like to remember that as I bitch about Mike or about my job.  I try not to get overwhelmed by it all….help me stay focused.

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.  Plans to give you hope and a future….you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.”  Jeremiah 29:11

This is our new fruit tree!  I got it for Mike for our 5 year anniversary “wood”.  Lord, help it grow 🙂

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Thank you for my two amazing dogs.

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Hockey season is upon us!  #LetsgoPens

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I am thankful for 7 spots that allow me to buy hockey tickets.  What a blessing.

This is one of my Grame’s baby tortoises….should Mike and I make the commitment and get one??

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I am a teacher

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Brittany wrote this blog today that went like this…

Waking up this morning, I smiled.

Twenty four brand new hours are before me.

The beauty of the trees, the softness of the air and the trail of the sun, speaks to me.

And the life that never goes away, they speak to me…and my heart soars.

Food is not matter but the heart of matter, the flesh and blood of rock and water, earth and sun.

I am a gardener…..I dig ditches, toil the sweat, and turn the earth upside down.  I seek the deepness 

and water the plants in time……I continue this labor.”

~Britt

It’s beautiful, no?  It made me smile as I read it at 5:30 this morning.  I am so grateful to hear from my friend every couple of days.  She includes pictures and words of wisdom.  And somehow, it makes me feel at peace.  It makes me feel like I could get up and go dig in the garden for hours on end.  She has always been such a free spirit.

Then, I go to work and my 1st period is copying each other’s homework and packing up their work 10 minutes before the bell…and my peace is gone.  The day gets better as it goes on, but it started crappy!  Then, my 4th period wants to complain about their math teacher.  How he doesn’t teach…he gives them the tools to teach themselves.  And they say “he isn’t like you, Mrs. Mazzone….no one is like you.  You teach, and you are good at it.”

Wow.  That kind of thing can keep me going for a while.  In the midst of my annoyance with all things key club and with not being pregnant…God gives me those moments.  Moments of purity, moments of peace.  And I am thankful for that.

So, I wrote my own version of Britt’s blog today.

Waking up this morning, I smiled.  My friend Britt reminded me to smile and count my blessings.  

Twenty four brand new hours are before me    

The beauty of the trees, the softness of the air and the trail of the sun, speaks to me.  The beauty of the morning, the smell of coffee, the traffic report…speaks to me.  

And the life that never goes away, they speak to me…and my heart soars.  God speaks to me through people, through things, through my students….and my heart soars.  

Food is not matter but the heart of matter, the flesh and blood of rock and water, earth and sun.  Education is not the matter but the heart of the matter.  It will influence them all in one way shape or another.  I will influence them for the better.  

I am a gardener…..I dig ditches, toil the sweat, and turn the earth upside down.  I seek the deepness.  I am a teacher….a daughter, a sister, a wife.  I teach children, toil in the labor, and turn their minds upside down.  I seek the deepness.  

and water the plants in time……I continue this labor.  And water the plants in time….I continue this labor.   

~Britt and Harmony

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